Life doesn’t always unfold in the way we plan. After returning to the UK, broke and defeated, I found myself in an unexpected and challenging role that would ultimately play a pivotal part in rebuilding my career. I became an Eskimo. It was a digital agency with a quirky name that aged badly.

One of the most surreal and memorable experiences of my life was befriending Lexi Belle, a top-tier adult star with an enormous fan base. At the time, I had nothing tangible to offer her professionally, so I avoided bringing up business altogether. Instead, when she visited the UK for work, she spent an entire day with me, exploring the hidden gems of London. It was pure, unadulterated fun—an unexpected connection that left a lasting impression on me.

The echo of LA's neon buzz still flickered in my mind when the silence of failure finally set in. I had been living the dream, surrounded by icons, making connections, and building my vision. But dreams come with a cost, and the price was starting to catch up with me.

The money had run out. My pockets were empty, and my bank account was a cruel reminder that nothing lasts forever, especially not when you’re chasing something so ambitious and uncertain. I couldn’t keep the momentum going, and the pressure had finally broken me.